Anger seemingly found its clenched grip around my neck,

A ribboned noose teasing my death

Pulling me tighter as I try to break away.

Conversations hazed to my own daydreams,

The whispers of the wise

‘It’s not always what it seems’

Is this all I will ever be?

The past haunted me for so long

My fury and wrath howled how you were wrong

The engraved multitudes felt when we broke in two

The love that only existed between very few

How when we collided the system broke,

Scientists had never seen it before,

Time had stopped,

Space halted its expansion,

The algorithm had glitched.

Through my sorrows I see none of that to be true.

To be someone that has to be loved

Or worthy of someone’s heart is a sentence

It’s sometimes more than I can manage

For someone to want me,

Or to want me not,

Should not reign power.

I was a lover for too long of my life

I watched these men tell me wonderful things

As they twisted the knife

felt lost alone when they were done

Took months and years of darkness to appreciate the sun

What a concept for one to have control over me

When my wisdom whispers s

‘You are meant to be free’

But…

My narrative expanding.

My heart not quite as damning.

The unruly loss i mourned and carried at my side

Was truths about where your lied.

Due to myself being the biggest romantic,

A woman of ravaging depths can try— but not suppress it.

In my love there cannot be options and questions, other women and ifs.

There is only me and you,

That is it.

I want to write stories of my new antics

And freedoms,

New villains and demons.

The light is out and this snippet is over.

There are no longer pages of her fighting for her life,

There is only tales of how she

survived.