Rosalie,

When you cry i do more than ache

What about the demons I cannot face

Who thinks about me?

When I’m alone and cannot sleep

One day I’ll be at someone’s side

I’ll think I’ve walked away from this all

Calling it lessons

or a wild ride

The farther we try to run,

Once the damage is done

Trying to convince and explain

In every way to minimize this pain.

The curse of a double edged sword

Will forever leave its mark

On the dooer,

and the one she and I tore apart.

Scars from my infidelity

Keep me from taking accountability.

I will make you my enemy.

Arrows aim

Ready,

Set

Go,

Repeating our story

Forever,

Infinitely scripted

in my bones.

Rosalie,

they say the truth will set you free

they don’t talk about the realities

What does this make me

Is this what I’ll be?

The day I regret is the day I become

Everything I never wanted to,

And then some.

I cannot be the person that you need

Everyday I watch a piece of you leave

To be in pain is brutal,

But to cause it and have no regard—

I don’t know who I am.

I lost everything

by my own hand

Rosalie

When you’re happy

and the tears are dry,

Don’t let this fool you

I will think of your magic and your light.

The more I seem fine

Is the more I am passing the time

The story ending is unimaginable

You going—

is unfathomable.

Rosalie,

time will reveal

What my words cannot

Pride doused in anger

causes one to rot

I will find myself finding your clones

Hoping that my choices won’t make me

End up alone

Rosalie,

When there is a new prospect

We convince ourselves we had

grown tired

Find reasons to make the great escape

I am sorry I realized the irreversible damage,

Too little,

Too late.

Forbidden love is always the sweetest

Woven in passion and desire

I knew I was playing with fire.

Opening the trap door of;

I have never been heard this way,

When I returned home to you

At the end of each day.

I said the same things to her

I said to you

I know deep down for it to be true

I heard her say she has never felt

So liberated,

So free

So heard,

All while I gave you promises,

Gave you my word.

Rosalie

You are better than this

Every moment up until now has insulted

Your grace

Something I’ll fight to one day face

Forgive the tormented soul

Who mercilessly stole

Your power,

Your will,.

Your integrity,

Your honor,

Your fight.

Rosalie

I need someone who will play.

One that will break and bend

To make sure I always

Get my way

You are more than a game of

Cat and mouse

Realize your worth,

burn down our house.

Therefore,

We both know what is true,

I cannot be with you.

I will never be the same

From the scars

I created zealously.

Rosalie,

You are more than an

I am sorry.

Sincerely,

Scars from

My Infidelity.